dark mornings bright nights

Iloveyouemma

2009-12-20T04:47:00.001-08:00

THANK YOU SO MUCH.

KAMSAHAMNIDA.

ARIGATOU GOZAIMASU.

TERIMA KASIH.

for getting me the fans issue of september and october!!!!!!

my day is another boring day.

seriously.

i need a life man.

Stupid laaa.

2009-12-19T05:40:00.000-08:00

When i woke up today, the stupid Wedding Dress - Taeyang was ringing in my head. It probably was playing when i was dreaming too.

Slept at 8 am woke up at 7 pm.

Nothing interesting happened today.

I think i'll go to Shira and Dira's house tomorrow. For no reason.

Mwahahaha.

Twointhemorning

2009-12-18T09:55:00.000-08:00

I cannot believe it.

24th of December.

Deja Vu.

I woke up at 3 today. 3 PM.

Music Bank was awesomeee.

manmanhani!

U-kiss is hot.

ILOVEEM!

There's seriously nothing to write here la.

My holidays are sooo boring.

The only pro bout it is that i didn't miss a single korean show on tv. <3

Baked cupcakes for my sister's bf. Thats it.

Madras Eye seriously needs to be heyojija-ed(separate) from me.

Annyoung!

Aigoo!

2009-12-17T12:26:00.000-08:00

OMG OMG OMG OMG

I love the new skin.

On my new and latest blog.

Soon to go public.

Soon.

I promise.

But not so soon.

I might forget bout it.

Since i have STML.

It's sooooo niceee.

THANK YOU EMMA.

KAMSAMNIDA.

Cheoseonghamnida.

2009-11-25T08:26:00.000-08:00

I'm sorry. For abandoning you.

I've been very busy lately.

Not really.

Just enjoying my time outdoors.

Oh man, feels so good to do that.

Went to OU 4 times.

Watched 4 movies.

Want to go out again but "Times Are Tough"

Pfft.

Then, been watching alot of SS501 videos.

Thats why i've been so occupied.

HEHEHEH.

I'm going back kampung tomorrow.

Boo.

Well back to my hangukmal goodness!

Breathe of Fresh Air

2009-10-19T09:45:00.000-07:00

You know that feeling when you're just happy for no reason?

Well if you don't, then no comment.

I am just happy for no reason.

No reason at all.

Wait does that even make sense now?

PMR ended. last week. Yippee!

SS501 released their lastest mini album "Rebirth"! AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!

Ever since then, I've been on uhh.. how many outings?

2? 3?

And i still haven't seen them pics!

May what's the password?

You're killing me here.

Have you lost all contact with us?

Mah!

I stole my sister's phone. Muahahahaha.

And emma, i saw nik's picture.

No comment.

Watched Sorority Row.

I kesian them people who has to sit next to me :)

Bumped into a long time friend.

I'm kinda pissed cos I haven't seen SS501 on tv for so long.

Hopefully they make a comeback this week!

Play hard to get ah?

Well.. Its working xD

Got school tomorrow.

And i don't plan to sleep yet :)

Rach, WE. MUST. TALK!!!

I really don't wanna bring my sister to halloween this year.

Cos its R-rated. Duh.

Kan miya?

I should learn to stop swearing. GRR.

Jung Min with my heart <3

2009-09-17T06:44:00.001-07:00

Hi.

2009-09-17T05:01:00.000-07:00

In this special blog post i shall rant.

I shall rant in this blog post.

Its not special.

It's just another ordinary post.

Ok screw that.

It's not usually ordinary.

Usually its unordinary.

So you can say its an unusual ordinary post :)

You honestly thought i was going to rant?

Please.

Jung Min!!!!!!!!!

I just love him! <3

Don't you?

Happy Hari Raya to those who celebrate and wish to celebrate this festive holiday :)

Dniz, did i ever tell you how much i love you ?

xDD

Don't hate me Jung Min!

2009-09-13T07:13:00.000-07:00

He likes girls with long hair.

I don't have it anymore :'(

But i will still support him!

No matter what!

Because i absolutely adore and love him.

This girl has chopped her hair.

Oh em gee!

My My!

Days are flying, and this girl is just on stand by.

Btw, I need new SHOES! as in Heels :)

Tata.

J - u - n - g Min!

2009-09-12T01:01:00.000-07:00

Thats Jung Min making his aegyo.

NGAAAHH.

I love youuu!

I think what i did just now could be called studying.

But i wanna study more!

Don't i just sound like a nerd?

NGEHEHEHE.

I MUST STUDY.

for goodness sakes, what am i doing?

Swooning over Jung Min.

Thats forgivable right?

Rach i guess we're back to bad timing.

When i'm online, you're not.

When you're online, I'm not.

Gah.

Oh well, we can always leave messages everywhere.

Did i mention, the only songs i listen to nowadays are pure korean?

OH my god. I love it so much.

go to youtube and listen Brown Eyed Girls - Abracadabra.

Jung Min! Jung Min!

2009-09-10T20:30:00.000-07:00

Could you make me fall in love with you any more?

I guess you can since for the fact that your attitude is just too magnetic.

Not a day goes by that i don't think of him.

and that HUG.

aaaaahhhhh.

I am typing while i know there are people who went to school today.
why?
cos chandra told me not to come.
i should be doing work now.
but i can't.
oh im screwed.
Dniz i need to talk to you!
and i miss tootsie.
and i was typing tibe2 the window closed.
wtf.
then it appeared after i closed my eyes. and wished for it to come back.
PFFT.
yeah right la, it just does that.

MY MY, days pass by so fast.

450th post specially goes to PJM

2009-09-03T06:54:00.000-07:00

I got to hug him. I got to hug him. I got to hug him. I got to hug him. I got to hug him.

He is the most awesomest CELEBRITY EVA!

and i know the girls i told there was really REALLY jealous xDDDD

Blog skin.

2009-08-29T14:13:00.000-07:00

As you can obviously see, Kim Hyun Joong a quarter naked.

Cos the ~~fully~~ semi naked picture is in my phone.

And OFF LIMITS.

o h yea.

I feel bad cos Ikuta Toma is no longer my obsession. And so is Matsumoto Jun.

Because they never made a promise to come to Malaysia.

HEHEHEHE.

But birds must always be set free.
So be free IT and MJ.

For now, KHJ is my obsession :DDD

Isn't his picture just 8D

*drools*

Sorry. I looked at it too much :)

Cari pasal je.

2009-08-29T13:24:00.000-07:00

Geram ah.
Stupid computer is being such jgndsvnofnsdbgfnds!

I am completely overdosed on SS501..

Park Jung Min has such a sexy voice.

I know its insulting KHJ but i think PJM's solo is my fav <3

His voice and melody connects with the tune of the song really well.

It's intoxicating.

Hey you!
Yea you!
C'mere.
*purr*

Ok that was completely random.
I was blank!

It is ALMOST confirmed that SS501 will perform in Malaysia.
Hopefully KL.
Hopefully Bukit Kiara :D

I need to start studying.
I've been taking a vacation for real.

Haaaaaaaaaa.
But i don't wanna.

Stupid exams.
Stupid PMR.
Stupid Stupid Stupid.

<3 Aween

DBSK

2009-08-25T14:53:00.000-07:00

Fine i admit they're good.
And Kim Jae Joong IS HOT.

My fav song now is Big Bang ft 2NE1 - Lollipop.

Its nice.

Since dearly beloved emma pushed me to UPDATE, then i shall.

first off, EMMA, FUYOH. GILER HOT DOH. HAS N SEEN THE PIC?!?!?! *being super supportive-gimme some credit here-*
Btw, go to emma's blog if you are super rajin. and wants to see a mind-blowing picture.

Wanna see something?

Yes Go ahead, take it in. He's my phone wallpaper. He's also my 23-year-old baby.
8 Years difference. :DDD
Even Rach says he's cute!!!!!

Secondly, I uploaded vids on FB. Go check it out.

Rach my computer suddenly disconnected. Stupid bitch. So the vid you were sending me wasn't completed.
Till we meet again.

My tummy is aching. Ramadan is putting weight on me. Literally. I'm eating uncontrollably at midnight.

I just came back from Sahur-ing at Bestari. I didn't give a damn and unbuttoned my pants. Let me tell you. It felt GOOD.

Well I'm suppose to balik kampung. But see first. Till next time!

<3

I'd like to tickle your pickle.

2009-08-07T06:56:00.001-07:00

That sounds sick in soooo many levels.
but i can't stop lmao.

Rach, honey remember the IF.

Miya, 2 more days.

Dniz, I wanna go to your house and play with tootsie and laugh my ass off over stupid things while baking random things with you again!!

I just got an injection today.
Apparently, my body is not bitten by bed bugs.
It's some kind of rare disease caused by fleas.
My skin!!!
Anyway, I got Acidified Potassium Permanganate Solution to be smeared onto my body.
I played with it.
It's like ink.
It's still on my fingers though.
And it's soooo purple!

I think i had 3 injections this year. What hell man.
I don't wanna see anymore NEEDLES.
GET. ME. AWAY. FROM. THEM.
I got a fresh new batch of antihistamine.
They're red.
OOoOoo.
and some antibiotics and this one white medicine which i think is steroids.
Either way, It's still awesome.
And i have to stay away from chicken, beef, all those meat meat stuff. :'(
I can only eat veges >:P and fish.
So healthy mah.
To think i have been eating the wrong food the whole week and enjoying myself at that.
OH NOT TO FORGET.
i can't even eat chocolate and nuts and stuff. AAAAHHH.
AND
milo. D:
evil..

Why is it taking super long to update my status on twitter???
>:O
eh noi ying.

Rach Rach Rach.
C was totally wrong choice.
We should do T and H and S next time. :DDD

Totally.
I guess i should sleep now.
The drugs are kicking in.
*yawns*
Nightz :D

Prefects Dinner.

2009-08-01T00:11:00.000-07:00

Dang it. I did not bring my camera.
But oh wells.
i tried asking people to get me into their cameras :D

I thank you so much Rach!
For doing my make up.
Some people didn't recognize me.
Some people thought i came out from Lord Of The Rings.
Some people thought i looked like Katy Perry.
Some people thought i looked like Lady Gaga.

I liked the one i made the best.
I looked like the korean Popstar Lee Hyori.

But seriously. it is so cool.

taking it off is the most. annoying part.
but i took it off.
:D

I forgot the lines for There You'll Be.
and people thought something was wrong with the mic xD

The food was amazing!!!!
I had fun.
But i ate too much until i couldn't dance.
Oh well.

Then alot of camwhoring.
And you people who has my pictures with you.
Do post them up and tag me :D

Thank you.

SS501 <3

2009-07-26T03:35:00.000-07:00

i just love them.
and their love songs are just so sweet.

i am tired.
so tired.
nuff said.

These are SS501's current pictures. They all look super freaking hot. OH yea.

Heo Young Saeng
is actually cute.
And his voice.
ngaaaaaaaaa!!!

Park Jung Min
is just too adorable!
His attitude is magnetic.

Kim Hyung Jun
Like Alia said, He's baby face.
His brother lagi baby face.
They're sooo cute!!

Kim Kyu Jong
His smile is breathtaking.
:D
But he ain't smiling for this pic though.

AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST.
*drumroll*

KIM HYUN JUNG
the leader.
born on 6th of June 1986.
His birthday is like a day after mine!!!!
Ain't it cool?
But it'd be cooler if my birthday is the same day as his.
But I'm happy he's a Gemini baby anyway.
The only reason why KHJ's pic/vid is smaller than the rest is cos im keeping all his *kyaaaaa* pictures to myself. and my phone's wallpaper.

SS501!!!!!!!

2009-07-22T05:48:00.000-07:00

MY BABY IS COMING TO MALAYSIA!!!!!!!

GO DEMAND THEM TO COME TO KL!

View all Kuala Lumpur events on Eventful

few words.

2009-07-09T07:36:00.000-07:00

hi.
how are you?

i wanna stone.
cos im not a stoner.
but i'd like to be one.
it's not really a good thing though.
but it numbs.
and numb is good.

ujigeblaga.

2009-07-08T06:11:00.000-07:00

UINFEUIRGNRJKEGNWEFGSVHFJDBG

translation :

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.

Finally.

2009-07-02T05:41:00.000-07:00

I wish i could say that to almost everything and actually felt really good but it just means that i finally got to blog.
I couldn't get into blogger.
Mainly cos .......

Amirul kept saying i have big boobs.
-.-''
Rach i know how you feel now.

And he got that stupid song stuck in my head.
Taking back my love by someone.

I'm scared.
*cowers*
Just scared...

I just joined twitter.
I feel like a noob.

I love my twitter profile
:D

add me. www.twitter.com/dvashaz

urm urm urm.
me has gots ta go!

RACH I ABSOLUTELY CANNOT WAIT FOR YOU TO COME BACK!

the next episode.

2009-06-26T06:44:00.000-07:00

listening to yuna - deeper conversation.
this song is calming.
i like..

i wanna download.
but like stupid slow internet.

I BOUGHT 3 NEW NAIL POLISHES.
kyaaaaa!!!
yellow.
light pink.
red.
so happy :D

I need to buy a new mascara.
Oh my god.
Heels are soo dang expensive.
my goodness.

i am still in the midst of buying a dress.
aiya.
im worried.

rach.
check your fb inbox.
and and and and.
less than 2 weeks.
babe.

Thus it begins.

2009-06-25T07:09:00.000-07:00

RACHHH!!!!
2 WEEKS
2 WEEKS
2 WEEKS.

I AM SO FRIGGIN PSYCHED !

AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

today, me n emma skipped most of the classes.
well i skipped all.
mwahaha.
the job that Joe was suppose to do, was done by meee!! and emma!!!
XD

my face hurts.

i saw him.
like literally pass by him.
and like.
so turned off.

anywhoos.
now the whole class thinks i like harendra.
-.-'''

anyways.
im supposed to be doing my homework.
but the fact that internet is a distraction will never change!

i shall retreat to my beautiful bed.
cheerios!

i sparkle!!!

2009-06-20T09:07:00.000-07:00

rach don't forget our parody when you come back kays?

Lady Gaga has a way of charming you with her sick words.

Your sex is his new name. AHAHAHA.

"I didn't realize how tight my hand clutched his".

It's literally calling your name.

Random ne?

Hannah Banana Sugar Sugar

2009-06-20T08:56:00.000-07:00

Your name makes me hungry.
But thats not the reason.
I have decided to dedicate this delicate post to you!
That's a lotta D's.

Happy Happy Oh So Happy
Birthday,
Birthday....
To Hannah.................

Thats my broadway version to you.
But i
ill come up with a better one if only my brain is working.

But

HAPPY belated by 3 minutes BIRTHDAY HANNAH!

em ma ma ma

2009-06-20T08:39:00.001-07:00

I realize i did not post a birthday wish for my dearest friend, called Dooh Anilamme.
Oh whoops sorry its Emmalina Hood.

I am currently very malas to search for photos of you and me.
Which will make me feel guilty afterward but that's me!

Now let's start.

Dearly beloved,
We have gathered here today,
to celebrate the holy belated birthday of this individual.

HAPPY belated BIRTHDAY EMMA!!!

I SAYANG YOU!

I am sexy and brave XD

2009-06-20T05:36:00.000-07:00

n o im not.

maybe i am.

but who knows?

you be the judge.

I ABSOLUTELY CANNOT WAIT FOR RACH TO COME BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

do the dance do the dance.
uh uh oh yea. uh uh oh yea.

ENCORE ENCORE!

*stomach grumbles*

sorry, i haven't eaten dinner.

Quote Adam Lambert : I'm Gay. Kriss Allen was the only attractive man i found on the show.

I no longer support him. No la. Just kidding.

He has pipes. Izzat's right. He's nice when its live.

Poker face won't leave my head. I loved You belong with me.

It only lasted a night.

Here comes the I's.

I want Lee Hyori's body.
I am currently waiting for my food.
I have terrible results.
I need a new addiction.
I need to get over it.
I need to lose weight and have a hot body just in time for IU.
I have to finish all my homework.
I wonder if bookshop's open tomorrow.
If not, I am screwed.
I am waiting for Atashinchi No Danshi.
I should be signing in to msn.
I dunno why i'm still delaying.
I have 2 idiot dogs.
I need a dress.
I need a hot dress.
I need heels.
I need to go shopping.
I need to get rid of these dark circles.
I need to step up.
I have too many regrets in a 2 week holiday.

Comeback

2009-06-17T01:12:00.000-07:00

that wasn't much of a comeback.
-.-''

ANYWAYS.

I got my internet back. But i can predict that my sisters will be fighting over it.

And i shall try my very best to go online.

But! do not expect much

Rachel a.k.a my darling wife
Tell me the important thing through offline messaging.
I'd go online and find out.

Birthday

2009-06-04T09:57:00.000-07:00

That's what Awin did

for the first hour of her 15th year.

Tootsie is so fat.

2009-06-04T07:18:00.000-07:00

Hi,
I'm Dniz typing for the Birthday Girl.

Qoute Awin:

I'm hugging Boiboy and my
birthday is in an hour and forty minutes.

Dniz: .... wtf. O.o HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :D

Blame it on the alcohol

2009-05-25T06:02:00.000-07:00

OH THE MIGRAINE.

shooh!

i love cinderella and deja vu.

both korean songs.

oh oh not to mention gee and i wanna.

YEAH!

i can't seem to get over him just yet.

but undergoing training.

TTFN.

Tag in an oh so long time

2009-05-25T00:00:00.000-07:00

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 100 Truths about you. At the end, choose 15 people to be tagged. You cannot to tag the person who tagged you.

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: Water.
2. Last phone call: May May
3. Last text message: I deleted it! :P
4. Last song you listened to: Tracks of My Tears - Adam Lambert
5. Last time you cried: Last week. I think.

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: Nope.
7. Been cheated on: Yes. And i hope he deserves something worse.
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: Uhh, Za, should i ?
9. Lost someone special: No.
10. Been depressed: I can't believe he won't say anything. I wanna die.
11. Been drunk and threw up: Nope.

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. Purple
13. Black
14. Red

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: yes
16. Fallen out of love: Not yet.
17. Laughed until you cried:Yes.
18. Met someone who changed you: Yes.
19. Found out who your true friends were: Yes.
20. Found out someone was talking about you: Yes.
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: Yes.
22. How many people on your facebook friends list do you know in real life?: 98% of it.
23. How many kids do you want to have: A football team!
24. Do you have any pets: Doggies.
25. Do you want to change your name: No.
26. What did you do for your last birthday: I went to OU with me friends.
27. What time did you wake up today: 6.30 am.
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: sleeping.
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: Holidays!
30. Last time you saw your Mother: 30 minutes ago.
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: I have what i want. Eventhough what i want, isn't something i wanna change.
32. What are you listening to right now: Adam Lambert - A change is gonna come.
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom:No.
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: Him. Cos he doesn't know.
35. Most visited webpage: My blog.
36. Whats your real name:Sharifah Shazuwin Binti Syed Sheh
37. Nicknames: Awin, Aweeen, Sharifah, Shaz
38. Relationship Status: Married To Rachel :)
39. Zodiac sign
Chinese: Doggy.
Western: Gemini
40. Male or female?: Female >.> <.<
41. Elementary?: SKSH
42. Middle School?: SMKSH
43. High school/college?: Not yet la.
44. Hair colour: Blackish. Black.
45. Long or short: Long.
46. Height: 154. I think. I'm 2 cm taller than D. :D
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: YESYESYES.
48: What do you like about yourself?: I like that i am growing boobs XD. NO LA.
49. Piercings:ears
50. Tattoos:Never.
51. Righty or lefty: Righty.

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: Never had one.
53. First piercing: I don't remember when i got it >:0
54. First best friend: Sweetie. Her name IS sweetie.
55. First sport you joined: Marching.
56. First vacation: Thailand.
58. First pair of trainers: Whats trainers?

RIGHT NOW
59. Eating: nothing
60. Drinking: water
61. I'm about to: Finish this tag.
62. Listening to: Adam Lambert - One.
63. Waiting on: This f-ed up migraine to go away. SHOO!

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids?: Yes.
65. Get Married?: Yes.
66. Career?: Yes.

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: Lips.
68. Hugs or kisses: Kisses.
69. Shorter or taller: Taller
70. Older or Younger:Middle.
71. Romantic or spontaneous: Spontaneous definitely.
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: *drools* Kim Hyun Joong
73. Sensitive or loud: Loud.
74. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship.
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: Trouble maker. Wait, no. Hesitant. I CANNOT MAKE UP MY MIND.

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: no
77. Drank hard liquor: no
78. Lost glasses/contacts: never owned one.
79. Sex on first date:no.
80. Broken someone's heart: yes.
82. Been arrested: no
83. Turned someone down: yea
84. Cried when someone died: yes.
85. Fallen for a friend?: yes.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: sometimes.
87. Miracles: yes.
88. Love at first sight: yes.
89. Heaven: yea
90. Santa Claus: yes.
91. Kiss on the first date: yes.
92. Angels: yea.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: no
95. Did you sing today?: yes.
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: how many bloody times does this question have to come up??? NO NO NO.
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: Form 1.
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: Urm.... I can't think right now.
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: uhh, am i?
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: No.

1.Kim Hyun Joong.
2.Park Jung Min
3.Kim Hyung Joon
4.That other dude in ss501 i forgot. AAHHH.
5.Kyu Jong.
6.So Hee
7.Sun ye
8.Ye eun.
9.Yu Bin.
10.Sun Mi
11.Random person 1
12.Random Person 2
13. Random Person 3
14.Random person4
15.Anyone.

CA sucks.

2009-05-23T05:58:00.000-07:00

quote the meanie

"This year, I happened to turn it during the minute that Adam Lambert was singing 'Ring of Fire' and, at that moment, thought my ears would bleed. Contrived, awful, and slightly frightening! I wasn't really a fan and found myself surprised whenever folks told me that they liked him."

how dare he?!?!?!?!

so mean.
if you don't like adam, then shut up!
dont kutuk him bangak.

depression?

2009-05-23T02:58:00.000-07:00

i wanna cry.

Adam will always be The American Idol Season 8 in my heart

2009-05-21T22:39:00.000-07:00

haihz.
adam, do not be dissapointed.
you are ICONIC!
and and and i am sad yet happy cos runner ups always gets more popularity.
dude, you got to sing with alot of artists!
kewl.

kriss allen.
....

frust?
yes.

gajyuga means friend.
mal do hwan dwae means it makes no sense.

i have given up on him but i still like him
maldo hwan dwae?

i have never studied sejarah more than ever yesterday.
oh ew.

Rach! Gambarryo!
Good Luck for your test.
May my wife get high marks!
:D

Ee Babo made me more happy this morning.
For a second there, i forgot bout Agama.
Cos his face calms me.

Dniz, how would you know he's stupid?
You have never met him!
:P

Whose rainbow donkey?
I don't know no rainbow donkey.
I know someone with that initials though :D

Someone else is driving me crazy though.
you evillinie.

Maybe Ee Babo doesn't know >:0

Mad World is my favorite song now.
:DDD
He has never failed to make me ..aaahhh...

*listening to mad world :D*

i agree with that dude that says Adam has pipes.
Yes he does.

He is sexy.
:D

Wonder Girls has nice songs.

Should i confess?
So i could just get this crappy feeling over with?

Just drop it.

2009-05-20T01:27:00.000-07:00

get off my case bitch!
what is wrong with you?
I DID NOT START IT
you were the one who is too stupid and something is definitely wrong up there because you wouldn't want to take a step back to understand.
BUT NO.
you were just waiting to get something against me.
so you and your pathetic life would start it all over again.
GOD, you and that other guy is also the same.
I know you like to joke around.
But jokes has its limits IDIOT.
i do not want to get all racy cos then you would just be a waste of time in my life.

anyways, alongside your irritatingness, i find the exams are irritating because i can never get my peace and also because i get a lot of distractions.
interesting distractions.

i embarrased myself.
i had no idea.
alaaaa.
i was TOO hyper, i scared him away.

im into korean songs.
need more recommendations.

and i wanna eat cake.

Diagnostics

2009-05-18T23:46:00.000-07:00

ITS TOMORROW!!!!!

imma die now.

forgot something :O

2009-05-18T01:06:00.000-07:00

s : i want you to tell him but i dont want la.
e : ok i will.
s: even though i really want you to but dont la.
e : im doing it anyway
s : *did not take it seriously* oh come on, i just wanna live in my fantasy world and then later ill get back to reality that me and him dont belong la.
e : im still telling him.
s : its fantasy. lets not mix this. *still not taking it seriously that she IS gonna tell*
e : :)
s : *i like him!!!! damnit.*

I DID NOT THINK SHE WOULD REALLY TELL HIM EVEN THOUGH I WANT HIM TO KNOW.
but that's just fantasy.

and like she told his friend,
and like.
im scared.
cos he said.
he's gonna tell *ehem*

I refuse to come to school tomorrow.
but i don't see him very much cept for exams. he comes everyday for exams.
god, i sound like a stalker.

aaahhh. i need someone to talk to about this dang it. where are my girlfriends?

AND DNIZ LIM HSUI YEN!
WHERE ARE YOU?
YOU'RE HIDING AREN'T YOU?
I AM GOING TO FIND YOU.
AND GIVE YOU A BIG HUG.
YOU WATCH OUT.
:D

AAAH!

2009-05-18T00:46:00.000-07:00

emma told his friend.
and now i'm freaking out.

i don't want to go to school tomorrow.
T.T

Adam Lambert !!!!

2009-05-16T06:41:00.000-07:00

Where the f is everybody?

when i don't blog some people complain.
when i do blog, that some people don't visit.

WTF.

oh oh.
Everytime he sings, the hair on my body stands up.
its electrifying!
Almost Orgasmic!

Bored btw.
and so very close to doing something stupid.
Like seriously.

I am shcared.
Diagnostics is like days away.
If you think i should stop yapping about it, well think again.
I have rights to rant.
After all, it is my blog.
Anyway, this bloody exam should forever be damned.
I hate it.
And im watching the American Idol Marathon instead of studying.
So be happy that i shall fail all of my exams.

I wanna open a can of bir.
Out of pure boredom.

EVERYONE I KNOW SO FAR IS AGAINST ADAM LAMBERT.
he is so hot!
who cares if he is gay.
Which he is so isn't.
He is *hyperventilating*
that's how much i love love love him!

Life isn't perfect without seeing you

2009-05-15T05:15:00.000-07:00

I shall completely give up on you.
Starting now.

Ok now.
Ok you know what, If i see you on Monday, and i don't feel a thing, then i shall finally declare it.

anywhoos, it was his birthday today. and. uhh, i should stop talking about him now.

anyways, wondergirls songs are very nice. and i can't seem to get the top 10 songs of south korea at the moment.

i shall die right before diagnostiks. stupid irritating exams. it's so very frequent this year. probably cos i'm taking PMR. which i am so hoping there would be a Darurat on that particular week.

I don't even know the guy. And i want to confess?
Why Em?
Probably cos people do it all the time.
and they can't stand the feeling.
fine la.
I won't tell him la.

*attention whore moment*
I notice people don't visit my blog.
Is this a sign, that i should delete my blog?
Interesting.
Well, i should kan?
Since no one visits it anymore!

Why won't ss501 visit Malaysia?
Useless buggers.

I have never laughed so hard until i felt it is almost a sin to laugh.
watching Star King.

Wonder Girls - Irony (Tae Kwan Dae Remix) IS REALLY NICE.

too malas to colour the post.

why is everyone so busy nowadays?

-.-''

Rach, hurry and come back. Puwies.

Darren's Birthday Party yay!

2009-05-10T06:37:00.000-07:00

for the first time, i could finally go to one of his hosted parties.
he was such a gentleman, he picked me up.
cos he was also picking amirul up too.

and so, we got there. and i saw this guy.

ANYWAYS, lets move on shall we?
we played this game where 2 people must be blindfolded and spray people with one of those foam thinggys.
and then it was hitting pinata right?
anyway, the thing wouldnt break even chandra hit it.
but i wasnt there when david did.
so everyone serbu-ed the candy.
i got mars!
im so jakun.
that was the first time i ever ate mars chocolate.
then water balloon game.
well farzan got wet even before the game actually started.

then pictures!
brynna dared me to kiss darren during the shot.
and she would belanja me.
YES!
and like, i did.
IT WAS A DARE GODDAMNIT.
and plus, he didnt even realize it.
++ it couldn't be seen cos amirul poured water on darren.
it overshadowed the kiss.
it was on the cheek.
dont think otherwise.

anywhoos.
then we went in dried ourselves.
me and priyanka took the longest to change.
cos of our troublesome hair.

and i wore this white strap shirt, with short white pants.
and chandra was like
"i never thought you would wear this kind of shirt"
i wear this all the time la.
-.-''

amirul keeps on giving me that glare.
wtf dude.
then,
A : you better pakai balik your wet jeans cos later you jumpa my mom, brother, sister.
S : why la? its wet.
A : Go iron it.
S : eesh.
he sounds like a husband.
an irritating one.
before you think anything else, he was giving me a lift home.

then one by one, started leaving.
awww.
and amirul was freaking out, cos he doesnt want to be the only want left.
i was like, what about me?
and he said, oh yea i forgot you.
BUGGER.

then we took SOME MORE pictures.
i wish darren would post all of them up.
but he only posts the group ones.
awww.

and then we left, and amirul was like, let down your hair, cover the straps.
im like -.-'''
and when we got in the car, his sister was very friendly, and has the name of my baby cousin!!
:D
Thank you auntie for dropping me off.

I want darren to send me this one particular picture.
aaahhh.
ill try and get him to send me.
if he is online.

Rachel i desperately need to talk to you.
Where are you?

Retreat -.-

2009-05-09T05:48:00.000-07:00

i am so sleepy. slept at 3 woke up at 8.30. need more sleep.
screw the goddamn corrections.
screw the one day commitment to finishing the corrections.
i am tired. my eyes look weird.
i have bags.
i need transport home from Darren's party.
aaahh.
oh wells.
if i cant go, then his present is such a waste.
i shall retreat to my blankies.

Night.

tuna :)

2009-05-08T21:38:00.000-07:00

i hope emma n hannah are having fun at lysha's party.

corrections yet to be done.

had geo class today, and like for the first time in geo class.
i actually paid attention.

I walked there. i thought i was late, turns out the teacher hasn't even come yet. so walked around aimlessly with priyanka. and i ate kacang tumbuk for breakfast. i love kacang tumbuk.

Sorry Sorry ROCKS ASS! XD

and i finished cutting and pasting the song. may may.
i wanted you to hear it today but i didnt want to kacau you.
i hope you didn't forget my science notes.

ttfn(:

sorry sorry

2009-05-08T10:14:00.000-07:00

i went to youtube.
i typed sorry sorry.
and the song is

AWESOME!

love comes around

2009-05-08T06:08:00.000-07:00

eheh. i think alot of my titles are influenced by the song i listen to.

sejarah project done.
geo not done.
sivik. go die.
corrections T.T

i refuse to do any sort of homework tonight.
eep. there's geo class tomorrow.
i shall be walking.
ngehehe.

carmensita is such a nice song to salsa.
a slow salsa.

oh look!*points there* theres a little angel and devil on your shoulders.
telling you to get up and do the chicken dance.

za, are you on weed?

i have the sudden urge to go up to him and say hi. Really.

Rach, seriously, are you still paintballing?

I won't be spending time with my own mother this Sunday. )':
I shall be giving her a letter. But to only open it on Sunday morning.

Once upon a time, there's this girl. Her whole life she never stood up for herself. Until one day, she discovered she had powers which is when one minute she lifts her hand, the next her victim will have sparkles on the victim's face. Ain't that cool?

I am in a good mood. Don't spoil it. :D

oh rach....where are you.....?

Keep up the positive energy.

You gat tuu cheel man.

You so sexy,
you so fine,
you make my eyes go blind -.-

been a long time.

2009-05-07T06:23:00.000-07:00

ok maybe not.
but certainly felt like it.
i don't get people who is selfish with knowledge.
i mean, come on!
it helps you to remember even more.
haihz.
i have no idea what is wrong with you.
but certainly, don't blame me.

Sejarah Project is Almost. ALMOST. done.

need to print this. cut that. paste this. label that. aand, done.

i was busy ok?
chill la.

i am proudly able to say, i have found the rihanna song i have been searching for.

its....*drumrolls*

RIHANNA - HATIN ON THE CLUB

uh uh oh yea. do the dance. do the dance.

fyi, she is not a bad influence. she has been a great influence for me. if it wasn't for her, i won't be able to be who i am now. so don't pandai-pandai cakap things you yourself not even sure. and are just saying it because you're judging on what she says. wtf man. your own child is like.. no comment. woman, fix your own child, before you try to fix others. but she is not broken, so your usaha will be a waste if you do anyway.

come to think bout it, i can finally say, i have broken the barrier. feels free.

Rachel Vampire Labis, do you have any idea how many things i have to tell you??
Nvm, have fun paintballing first.
then we talk.
but make sure you gots tha time.

and Dniz, i would like to congratulate you. I am so proud of you. :D

and Miya, ill bring your necklace tomorrow, if i remember.

and Sam, get a blog.

and Priyanka, ill bring your postcard tomorrow.

i am not fat. but i ain't skinny either. therefore, must lose weight.

diagnostik is in 2 weeks. NO TIME MUCH?

*runs and bangs into lamp post*

PMS again.

2009-05-02T06:44:00.000-07:00

i think im pms-ing again.
im getting pissed at every little thing.
i have no idea why.
urgh.
i don't feel the need to breathe if im feeling like this.

SHUUUPER BOREDOM

2009-05-01T07:23:00.000-07:00

im getting tired of this.

im alone.

and im fucking bored.

do you have any idea how freaking boring that is?

and i seriously need ideas how to lighten up the situation.

screw you

2009-05-01T02:49:00.000-07:00

i dont have no big words or long sentences to describe how im feeling.

depressed.

im going out of my mind.

2009-05-01T01:03:00.000-07:00

so many things could happen in 2 hours. :0

Why won't you tell me what you wanted to tell me?
It's a secret.
Alaa. Why la?
Remember. I'll also tell you when the time is right.
Is it good or bad?
Depends on how you look at it. I think it's good.
You not telling me, makes me want to know even more.
As the old saying goes, for me to know, for you to find out.

screw you for not telling me. yet. >:o

ngeeh.

so many homework.
i hope you come online tonight priyanka.
i wanna finish that blasted sejarah project. :(

i actually feel better after that talk.:)

i don't think i'll be online tonight.
darling sister wants to use.:(

i can't believe i was at a house with 5-6 20+ year old guys from 1 am to 6 am.
one of them was hot.
DAYMN.
one of them was funny.
couldn't make me stop laughing.
LOL.:)

i hope you're having fun Darren.
at the party.

Oh God. I wish i have the license to drive and a hot sports car that makes me look sexy in it.

Hella Yeah :D

chuu ca chuu a.

things like when i say something and it doesn't happen when i want it to.

jinx sucks. :/

toodles.

Monstrous Migraine

2009-04-30T05:34:00.000-07:00

my kepala nak meletup.

i hate you emma.

giler banyak homework.

being alone is kinda boring.

i haven't eaten.

i haven't bathe.

i am frust i can't find the rihanna song that is playing on the radio.

i am also frust because there is so much to do.

and i do not have transport for practice tomorrow.

i think ill just walk.

hell of an exercise.

i do not have money to buy a new dress for IU day.

isn't that wonderful?

and mei-chan no shitsuji is not helping me in finishing my homework at all.

for some reason, i kinda want to balik kampung but im staying because of the amount of work.

shit you work.

go die.

WHAT IS THE RIHANNA SONG PLAYING ON THE RADIO?????

prefects camp.

2009-04-27T05:03:00.000-07:00

the water fall was so goddamn fun.
i swam with melissa. cos everyone else was too scared or didnt want to get wet.
and like i was too scared to swim.
and i got stuck there alone.
me and melissa posed under the waterfall.
it was effing awwesome.

Theme - Football

we got split into groups.
Group Name - 7 UNITED
Group Cheer - 7 UNITED! 7 UNITED!
so clap your hands,
and stomp your feet.
you can see us,
from a mile away.
So goooooooooooo,
7 UNITED!
Group Anthem - oh shit. i cant remember.
Group Members - Ezelea
Ang Hao Sern
Melvyn
Denisha
Naim
Eunice
Me
Sarah
Wan Hariz
if theres another person, i forgot him/her.
we got third bebeh.
i seriously thought we would have gotten consolation or something.

i got a nosebleed, and i didnt know bout it. and someone had to point it out.
and this stranger tsked me.
and it stopped then continued like a river.
got a migraine due to loss of blood.

*theres a spider on my computer oooo*

the cheer who won was so funny. cos of the hilarious voice.
hannah should join drama.

the bus trip was emo.
and pn sim was karaoke ing along to the emo song that was playing.
the back of the bus however was awesome.
upper form la.

my ribbon is red.
always always on my hand.

Exco's cheer were AWESOMEEE!

rooom - paranoid people. im serious.
hannah, ezelea, sarah elise, preveena.
first night, awesome cos i was hyper. but they slept too early.
there was 5 beds.
they all squeezed into 2.
so i had 3.
AWEESOME KAN?

my alarm was a&t gaseumi eottokeh dwaennabwa.

second night, was freakking annoying to them,
they wouldnt let me go to next door where may may and and mel was hyper cos they were all so quiet.
like seriously, too quiet you could die.
so i pulled out big guns.
and smiled.
SMILED WITH MY TEETH.
and stared.
yes. at them all.
stared at preveena at the edge of her bed.
stared at ezelea.
sarah got pissed like after 10 seconds.
hannah didnt cared.
seriously STARED AND SMILED. FOR HALF AN HOUR.
in the end, i gave up cos they were all too quiet. so i said ill be next door, when you all wanna sleep, call me.
and like she finally gave in.
it was pissing me off and them.
me, mel and may laughed so loud, next door could hear.
and like "i watched this show last night called UNZIPPED, this guy was so FLY"
so now, we're like unzipped whenever we call each other.

I MUST SAY, paranoid people and sensitive people should chill.
AND LIGHTEN UP.
oh and so goes to emo people.
and bimboes.

this year's form 5 batch is seriously awesome.
who wouldnt miss them?

bus ride home, i got CREAMED.

thats it.

desperado.

2009-04-22T00:24:00.000-07:00

i was so bored waiting for my mom/brother to pick me up, i talked to almost everyone at the bus stop even Bakia. or however you spell her name.
apparently she likes someone. in form 5. and she aint scared to tell.

david archuleta - a little too not over you.
is nice.

sejarah sucked. how'd i do? im only sure of one question out of 60. you be the judge.

maths was ok la.

agama.. uhhh... *runs*

And the setlist,
You stole of the stage,
Has red and purple lipstick,
All over the page.

studying is a big NO NO. i refuse. i so dont have the mood to study.

and camp is like 2 more days bebeh!

fuck this.

2009-04-21T00:44:00.000-07:00

i wanted a hug. is it alot to ask for?

if a teenager didnt have a bad side, would that still make him/her a teenager?

wouldn't you get pissed off that someone didn't tell you something that is quite important and unconsciously raise your voice?

wouldn't you get pissed off if someone points out that you're the worst child, dont even know which family you belong to, and very rude *when you are trying to not be rude* ??

TELL ME. WOULDNT YOU FUCKING GET PISSED OFF?

wouldn't you wanna fucking commit suicide to just erase this pain?

wouldn't you lose all mood to study, when you're suppose to, when all this fucked up shit is happening?

wouldn't you start cursing like a maniac?

if she is such a fucking nice child, why dont you make her your fucking child and disown me instead HAH?!

FUCK THIS. ITS TOO LATE TO BE NICE NOW. NOW YOU WOULD KNOW WHY IM SO BITTER.

nobody nobody but you!

2009-04-18T23:00:00.000-07:00

i like this song by Wonder Girls - Nobody.

i even know part of the dance. quite easy.

The Veronicas - Untouched. Listen to it.

and and and. i can't wait for camp this saturday!
uh uh oh yea!

im kinda sad that we got married for HJ & HB's last episode, is like the ending for them.

not fair la. they can still spend time together even after the show but it'll be very hard cos he had the drama to do.

i wanna cry!!

i don't know how to do hasil kajian. im so screwed. and i haven't studied for intervensi at all.

what am i doing wasting time??

AAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!

aaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh

2009-04-18T00:23:00.000-07:00

intervensi.
sejarah due end of the month.
tuition homework.
geografi.

and i stayed up till 4.30 watching we got married. what am i doing?

no mood i guess.

school not for me.

2009-04-17T08:00:00.000-07:00

i didnt go to school today. wow.
probably cos i had a bad stomach and my sleepyness was getting to me.

im turning more and more f-a-t-u-o-u-s.

rach come online. wanna talk. im shoo bored.

what the hell?

2009-04-16T07:32:00.000-07:00

i cried. in class. cos i needed to cry. cos it was suppressing. and the pressure. and i felt better. and like some conflict in class cos the teacher wanted to switch places cos of the noisiness. argh. i got to sit next to priyanka. but then english teacher came in switched everything back into other places according to how she felt like it. and that my mind was conjuring up ideas of how to get priyanka to be closer to me. cos i need her. cos if i didnt. i'd be screwed. totally. in other words im a bitch who needs a friend and the friend is like an angel and still is patient with me. had prefects meeting after school. and like, we were talking bout camp and all. went home this happened.

kaajal's mom had a surprise party and like my mom told me to go and if i didnt she would start questioning me.

and sam and i went. i mean i literally didnt know bout it till my mom told me like half an hour before the party started and i just came back from school. and like i had to rush and all.

and like kaajal's mom wanted to call may may but like it was too late. wait, i think she did. did you pick up the phone may?
i was wondering why may may wasn't there.
wish you were there.

i didnt even felt like i fit in.
cos i didnt know there was a theme and you had to be all dressed up .
i thought it was a small thing so i didnt dress up.
and like i was thinking over and over again whether i should go back and change or at least do something bout my appearance.
i wore shorts and a t-shirt. like wth.
so the party started. i had to do something or they would start coming to me and start questioning me why i was so sad.
so i gave up.
they had charades. and t or d but it wasnt so extreme. and drawing on the board blindfolded. and we danced. i guess chetna cheered me up. she is always so happy. reminds me of priyanka.

and like, we ate. lots of food. and im full. full till i dont feel so good. and i ended up cleaning the floor cos i had no idea what they were talking bout. left out.

sam had to leave after we surprised kaajal. ditch me la.

came home with 2 chains on my phone and this scented thinggy. the necklace thinggy.

:)

2009-04-16T01:12:00.000-07:00

dont be so sad. camp is nearing. smile! :)

i cant believe what happened today. my 3 days of a bitch worked out as planned. and regretted a lot of things. i needed to be a bitch. because it was all suppressing. and pressuring. i needed to. but i didnt mean those hurtful words i said. not one. not a single one. just that i was pissed off thats all.

oh oh oh miya dared me to push s.e.n.'s bag down. and i did. it was exhilirating! XD

je veux mourir est commun. je veux que quelqu'un me tue de la manière la plus douloureuse est plutôt elle. - Jacque Monteu

stress.

2009-04-15T08:47:00.001-07:00

it can only be blamed if it were to be blamed.
and i can only blame myself.
and i needed to talk to someone so badly today.
i am such an ungrateful bitch.
useless.
meaningless.
idiot.
fucked up.

im under fucked up stress.

calle ocho

2009-04-14T06:32:00.000-07:00

pronounced kayye otcho.

i love the song.

i shall never ever ever meddle in someone's personal life ever again after this.

i am not trustworthy at all. also a promise breaker.

i realized im no longer the jiwang hater type.

:O

he's driving me up the wall here!

i got shot and it still hurts like effing hell.

SHUT UP JUST SHUT UP!

2009-04-13T06:58:00.000-07:00

god. i cant take this.
this non stop nagging.
its so annoying.
SHUT UP ALREADY!

Happy Birthday Pau May May

2009-04-12T05:23:00.000-07:00

it rhymes!

3 years.
3 friggin years.
i missed my dear friend, Pau May May's birthday party.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAY MAY.

im sorry i cant make it to your birthday AGAIN.
but ill make it up to you.
when i have the money. ill get that present of yours.
it might come a little late.
but i will give it to you.

hugs and kisses
taripah tatuwin <3

sick

2009-04-11T10:14:00.000-07:00

i hate this cough.
flu.
and fever.
its annoying.
i know i should get enough rest.
but i rested too much.
screw this.
i wanna go to the party.
WAAAAA.
whoops.
i forgot to take my medicine.

saranghae hyun joong-ssi

2009-04-09T07:40:00.000-07:00

i believe that theres like 5 more episode.
isnt that uber coool?

candid this year is awesome cos we got to stand on the chair and pose!

horrible sore throat.
i wanna frikkin strangle myself.

wore a hot red dress today.
wearing it again tomorrow.
my crush saw me. UBER UBER AWESOME.

dancing for muhibbah. same dance as anugerah cemerlang.
i wanna go this sunday but i would need transport..

VI IU Day is on 23rd Of May.
i am so going.

i am in love with ss501.
not all their songs la.

just their voices are so sexy.

i asked everyone do they think that they're sexy?
and like most people say yea.
perasan.
but cool.

hyun joong,
you so hot,
you so fine,
you make my eyes go blind.

i made that up.

B-O-R-E-D
Big Oaf Randomly Eating D****

A-W-I-N
A Wonderful Interesting Noob

Miya want me to put yours here?

i wanna learn chinese, japanese, korean, and indian.

yes i wanna learn that language.
not writing just speaking.

May, honey water made the pain go a lil bit.
But the sore throat is still there.

i HATE sore throats.
They are so annoying.
Probably cos the Bilik Lukisan Teknik is so bloody dusty.
and i left my lukisan in there.
how wonderful.
the class tomoro in that room will see my ugly drawing.
MAH.

slutty eejit nigga & ho anorexic

2009-04-08T07:38:00.000-07:00

judging by the title i guess you know.

penyibuk gile doh.

her mere appearance is soo irritating.

next one is very 'awesome'

short temper.
weird.
freak.
disgusting.
slut.
omg so damn slutty.
like someone i know would say,

sell herself as a prostitute.

AH!

2009-04-02T23:09:00.000-07:00

gile frust.

Kkotboda Namja 24

2009-04-02T04:50:00.000-07:00

i hate it when that stupid annoying girl appeared.

I cried at every part.

part 1 - 6

yes. that sad.

but i didn't have tissues with me.

Drama was actually ok today. we actually finished the thing.

but sad they like to play alot.

daymn im gonna look sexy in that hot red dress.

Homework Hell

2009-04-01T05:00:00.000-07:00

its back.
the heep of homework is back!

AAAAAHHHHHH!!

*runs and bangs head against the wall*

truth

2009-03-31T08:19:00.000-07:00

i have something to say.
oh yea.
what i am about to say.
does not make me a drama queen.
because it is the truth.

i burden people.
i give people troubles.
i don't deserve to live.
because it seems i just irritate people.
what is most is that i really really do burden people.
i am annoying.
and if you think im a gold digger. mostly cos i think of money most of the time when it comes to boys. isn't that shallow?
i wont deny it.
cos i myself think so too.
i will not point out excuses.
i am immature.
i give people wrong impressions.
i make people do things they dont want to which makes me bossy.
i am a bitch.
i won't deny that either.
because once i turn into one, they're too scared to point that out.
i made a guy no longer think of me as a girl but as a guy and treats me as one.
i would not point out his flaws.
for i have made most mistake here.
i burden people in ways that are COUNTLESS.
i irritate people alot.
i am fake.
i wont deny that either.
cos the things i do or say are fake sometimes.
maybe cos i lie alot.
i have a rude mouth and a loud one too.
the fact that people keep quiet instead of just saying it to my face.
OF COURSE ill dislike you a lil bit. but it will go away because of your honesty.

so here i shall make a conclusion. if you guys just be straight to the point, i would very much appreciate. and it would all make our lives more easier.
yes i am in depression and yes alot of frustration in my head.
these feelings wont leave me until some miracle happens.

p/s Yes, home isn't a very wonderful place right now.
pp/s I would very much appreciate if you say harsh words to open my eyes. it would make you a bitch but it helps me in more ways than one. and just think of it as a good thing.

I don't believe you can fully know a person in a lifetime. - Yoon Ji Hoo

fucking retard

2009-03-31T08:04:00.000-07:00

YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE. WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE?
SO FUCKING RUDE KAN?!
OH I BET YOU ARE FUCKING THANKFUL THAT NOBODY WAS THERE TO STOP YOU FROM HITTING ME WITH THE FUCKING BROOM.
HAH! DONT EVEN HAVE THE GUTS TO HIT ME WITH OTHER STUFF?
I AM SO GLAD I KICKED, SLAPPED, HIT, SLAPPED YOU AGAIN HARDER!

but i am content now.

earth hour

2009-03-28T07:16:00.001-07:00

i wonder how many people have that as their main title.
hmm.
8. 30 - 8. 45 lying down listening to song. sms-ing. went to toilet.
8.45 - 9.00 went out danced to circus using phone. played with doggies.
9.00 - 9.15 did a catwalk along my road. danced. purchased twilight dvd.
9.15 - 9. 30 chased my dogs on heels. fan it and me cos we were so tired.

thats how i spent my earth hour.
the whole time i was sms-ing, rach, may, dniz, za and miya.
sam didnt reply. where'd you go sammy?

i took a pic with sammy. she's wearing make up. and so am i!

and like i had a dance and thank god redzwan took a vid of it. thanks redzwan!

punjabi shoot.

2009-03-27T05:45:00.000-07:00

i wanna take a video of our dancing.
why why why.
i am in a dance with el, em, yana, han, sham.
malay song : dia datang.
got chinese, malay, indian moves la.

i wanna wear sleeveless but cannot.
aiya. what rule is that?

i made a word.
:thuper:
say it right or dont say it.
cos its mine.

T - H - U - P - E - R

ill take a pic of me wearing the punjabi thing tomorrow.

and wth seducing pilots?

salad fingers is thuper fckin messed up.

6 days

2009-03-25T06:15:00.000-07:00

its been six days. wow.

lets see.
last thursday, had no mood to blog. few things happened. but they were trivial.
friday, finally got to stay in kl.
rents went back to kampung.
friday night, slept at d's.
saturday, had seminar robin hood was super annoying and demotivating.
saturday night, slept in the house. super tired.
sunday, had seminar same place again. OH. we met MBS boys. one of them is seriously lazy and i pity his future wife. we also met VI boys. may says one of them is hostile. he's not la. i bet he talks to his friends. i saw him laugh what. and Ampang boys. but they didn't show up on saturday. how sad.
monday morning, my rents came back. and had perhimpunan. and scolded 17-year-old boys to stop talking.
i guess i have to stop being so rude now. i sense hatred amongst form 3s also.
tuesday morning, it rained so no perhimpunan YAY.
got homework. nyaaaa.
today, we danced. tomorrow, raptai.

oh and i think i am putting on weight if i stay up.
oh gawd.
MAY, SRI GARDEN'S TICKET TO IU DAY IS SOLD OUT.
damn sad.
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

honja dasi tto part 2

2009-03-19T07:41:00.000-07:00

i was about to go crazy. and so close to committing suicide.
but i calmed down.
and then she noticed my existence.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

dear asshole dickhead

2009-03-17T08:29:00.000-07:00

you wanna fucking talk bout my friend. tak yah la nak buat publicly right?
you babi la.
and like the way you talk bout your personal problems is like world war 3 gonna erupt.
and whats with the way you write stuff???
did you get carpal tunnel syndrome?
cos i think you do.
just cos you perform and blah blah yada yada.
doesnt mean you're a fucking rockstar.
you just got lucky.
and dont give us nicknames you fucking slut.
you're the slut.
NOT HER.
gawd, what the fuck is your problem?
i don't want to get into details cos then it would be too obvious who i am talking bout kan?
but still.
calling her something she isn't
is something you are going to be.
but double it and if you dont stop your foolishness, idiocy, stupidity blah blah blah, ill make sure your personal problems will GO PUBLIC.
and you're the type of people who don't deserve to breathe.

honja dasi tto part 1

2009-03-16T07:30:00.000-07:00

the title means once again.
in korean.
so long since i blogged.
no la been.. urm.. 8 days?
not long.
busy la.
homework piling and piling.
when i finally finished my corrections.
i was dancing!
and i cant stop listening to ss501 - because i am stupid.
ITS SO NICE.
i watched it on tv yesterday.
and i freaking missed one episode just now!!!
ARGH FRUSTRATION.
kim hyun joong is so hot.
i could just melt.
AND HE SINGS!
miya, i think something's wrong with your eyes.
korean people do not look weird.
THEY LOOK FINE.
and i think that kkotboda namja is better then hanadan.
mark my words may may, its better.
i think i m saying this cos like they put some different scenes.
and like sorta twists the story.
but its super awesome!
i seem to say super awesome alot lately.

WAAAAA :'(

2009-03-08T06:15:00.000-07:00

its getting sucky.
like shite.
i cried.
3 times!
urgh!

as always now im torn between whether i should watch the next episode or not.
im dying.

she say you sucha dodgy geezer

you've got mail

2009-03-07T22:42:00.000-08:00

i like the title. :)

..
i am trying oh so very hard to not click mysoju.com/boys-over-flowers
argh!
i need to watch what happens next.

sports day is tomorrow tomorrow.
alone on the bus.
im the only dang form 3 in the marching team.
T.T
well ill just bring my mp3 and book to read to keep me occupied.
that would mean i need to update my mp3.
-.-

i searched up abortion and like im surprised alot of it i didnt know.
and it sounds PAINFUL!
alot of countries have legal upon request to abort their child.
oh my god la.
its A SIN!
In the USA, it is not unusual for women to travel from one state to another for reasons of termination of pregnancy.

I know i got issues but you're pretty messed up too - Kelly Clarkson

Episode 6

2009-03-07T06:30:00.000-08:00

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
That scene Never APPEARED!
how could this be?
oh my gawd!!!!

Ave Maria

2009-03-06T05:47:00.000-08:00

still watching BOF.
not as much as i want to watch the episode as the ones in japanese.
its quite anticipating la.
and korean is a really really really hard language.
i can barely understand what they're saying.
its like japanese+chinese+thailand.

its so hard >.<

Eiffel Tower

2009-03-04T09:00:00.000-08:00

i find them almost the same

2009-03-04T06:29:00.000-08:00

doncha think so?

Boys Over Flowers

2009-03-04T05:56:00.000-08:00

the main reason why i started a new series cos i couldnt contain myself.
there's so many similarities.
but there are differences.
which are quite shocking actually.
ah i wanna watch the next episode.
but but i wont stop.
and i have soo much homework to do!!!
aiya macha!

Move shake drop 2

2009-03-03T23:05:00.000-08:00

how bout we cut move shake drop from the starting to the end of the chorus.
and from there, we use another song.

like :

damaged - danity kane

when i grow up - PCD

in the ayer - flo rida

cyclone - baby bash

womanizer - britney spears

circus - britney spears

disturbia - rihanna

RIGHT ROUND - flo rida ft keyshia cole *mostly recommended*

pokerface - lady gaga

if you seek amy - britney spears

shawty get loose - lil mama *suggested by may*

bojangles - pitbull

No Daddy - Teairra Mari

DECIDE FAST.

random link - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yRVi0paZlfI&NR=1

kiss him.

2009-03-02T03:24:00.000-08:00

i want to.
but its impossible.

anywhoos, pantsless is working so far, its breezy plus its friggin hot ok?

im getting addicted to livita and most probably redbull.

running out of money to spend.

been eating improper meals.

i guess my parents think im independent.
AWESOME.
wish come true.

but they dont trust me going out.

but i still sneak out everywhere.

badass XD

i love love love love 'you found me' and 'dead and gone'

I have homework.
which i seriously don't want to do.

I am such a nerd when i balik kampung.
mainly cos i do my homework until sleeping time.
gawd.

almost missed school today. thanks dniz.

i mean it in a good way lawh!

if only money could fall from the sky.

that'll be SUPER!

You So Hot Bitch, I Swear I Was Gonna Faint - Shazuwin

bliss :)

2009-03-01T22:59:00.000-08:00

washed clothes *check
ironed clothes *check
fold clothes *check
wash dishes *check
fed the dogs *check
blast the speakers full volume *check
dance like a madman *check
run around the house
pantsless * check
dance in pantsless
with speakers blasted *check
eat junk food *check
dance like a madman eating junkfood blasting speakers with friends *unchecked

yes i am having the time of my life :D

Move Shake Drop

2009-02-27T23:07:00.000-08:00

listen up people especially.

miya, may, za

make 2 eights to this song.

Lies.

2009-02-27T22:31:00.000-08:00

1) What’s their name?
Rachel Vampire Labis

2) Does she have a boyfriend?
No.

3) Do you get along with this person all the time?
No.

4) How old is the person?
51.

5) Has she ever cooked for you?
Maybe.

6) Is this person older than you?
No.

7) Have you ever kissed this person?
No.

9) Are you related to this person?
No.

10) Are you really close to her?
No.

11) Nickname?
None.

12) Do they have a nickname for you?
No.

13) How many times do you talk to this person in a week?
Not at all.

14) Do you think they will repost this?
Yes. Because she did not write one for me previously XD

15) Could you live with this person?
No.

16) Why did you pick this person?
No reason.

18) How long have you known this person?
We just met.

19) Have you ever been to the mall with this person?
No.

21) If you ever moved away would you miss this person?
Not.

23) Have you ever done something really stupid or illegal with this person?
No.

24) Do you know everything about this person?
No.

25) Would you date this person’s siblings?
Yes.

26) Have you ever made something with this person?
We have never made anything together.

29) Have you gone skinny dipping with this person?
Yes.

33) Have you ever worn this person’s clothes?
Yes.

34) Does this person wear your clothes?
Yes. No. I don't remember.

35) If it was “freaky friday” would you switch bodies with this person?
No.

36) Have you ever heard this person sing?
Not at all. She hates singing.

37) have you ever seen this person dance???
No.

38) Do you and this person have a saying?
We don't have any saying whatsoever.

39) Do you know this persons myspace password?
Maybe.

41) Have you and this person ever gotten into a fight that lasted more than 2 months?
Yes.

44.) Have you and this person gone to a bar/ clubbing?
No.

45) Do you know how to make this person feel happy?
No.

46) Does this person know how to make you happy?
No.

47) Do you like this person?
No.

49) Have you and this person got into a fist fight?
Yes.

50) Do you want to go out with this person?
No.

51) Do you want to be friends with them forever?
I hope we end our friendship soon.

ima single laydeh!

2009-02-27T21:27:00.000-08:00

Oh yeah, what are you gonna do? Release the dogs or the bees? Or the dogs with the bees in their mouth, and when they bark they shoot bees at you?

LOL. photobucket.

..

doesn't he looks oh so dreamy :)

worse behaviour

2009-02-27T21:03:00.000-08:00

the rents went.
and tomorrow, my sis going back.

and i shall have the house all to myself till rents come back.

ain't that super awesome?

because i shall blast the woofer and i shall dance like a mad man.

WOOOOO!

listen up you mean people

2009-02-27T07:57:00.000-08:00

AFTER 2 WEEKS i finally have the TIME to come online!
and you PEOPLE.
some not online.
some ARE but not talking.
no point.
NO POINT AT ALL
going online.

i say, if i disappear, no one would notice.

now got mood la

2009-02-27T07:44:00.000-08:00

lets see.
last week, i was very busy couldnt remember a thing.
last weekend, i balik kampung.
finished all my homework, and had fun.
best visit balik kampung ever.
monday, so very nice.
tuesday, stayed back. no hopes of winning marching this year thats fer sure.
wednesday, quit marching. emo all day.
thursday, which was yesterday. sort of emo.
today was ok la.
pass by quite fast.

and i did something.
to get myself out of confusion.
and i haven't told a single soul bout it yet.
YET.

The Fray - You Found Me.
made me cry.

PS. I Love You made nicholas cry. it also made me teared up.

I feel like breaking up my hiatus.
and go up to a guy.
and get him.
like NOW.

me and priyanka made a cheer.
awesome.

sigh

2009-02-27T06:55:00.001-08:00

no mood to blog.

there i blogged happy?

Merentas Desa

2009-02-14T08:02:00.000-08:00

today has got to be damn tiring.
cos i came home and slept for 6 hours.
started out very sleepy-ish.
then i got hyper all of a sudden and started calling people sexy.
and and and i talked for the whole 4 km.
yes, non stop.
i made miya laugh till she was so tired.
and i called every female teacher on the way sexy.
and i wished them "Selamat Bekerja"
and i told the PBSM-ers good work.
and they are sexy.
and this guy teacher said he went around the neighborhood so many times
and still shocked that i am so slow.
i got LAST PLACE.
woooooooohoooooooo.
happyness.
then like later, after we came back, Ungu house no free water.
but thank god i was wearing blue house shirt, so i curi their water la.
then i went to the koperasi, and i told this girl, if she belanja me, ill call her sexy.
but she didnt.
so i targeted the next guy who came into the koperasi,
and i told him i'd call him sexy if he belanja me vitagen.
and he DID.
woooot.
and like this 2 girls were giving her friends free kitkat.
and i told them, if they give me free kitkat, ill call them sexy.
and they DID.
woooooot.
and i went up to teri and asked him if he worked out,
and he said yea.
then i told maxim omar, that my sister, whose an ex student thinks he's cute like a lil bro.
and then i went up to him again and said miya thinks he's cute, and he started blushing.
LOL.
yes i was that bored.
oh, and i annoyed phelan in the koperasi like hell. :P
and like lemme tell you, the atmosphere of love was in the air..
well, cant really blame them cos it IS valentines.
and i hate this particular day.

MATSUJUN DOES NOT LOOK LIKE JOE JONAS.
I PROVED MY POINT.
LOOK AT THE PICTURE PROPERLY.

Matsujun is A hoot.

i wanna change my facebook picture.
i think that Maxim is cute and i think some people can't see that.
and i think, i become unusually friendly/irritating when im hyper.

like, priyanka you bitch, never come to school today.
i am going to kill you on monday.

and za, i ain't gonna talk to you.

and and and i managed to make this guy whom i think is form 1 laugh during the last lap of merentas desa.
which is cool because like they all so tired and need a good laugh.
oh and this teacher got so pissed and started insulting us form threes and i was like ...
wtf.

my pinggang rasa cam nak jatuh.
i decided not to join marching this year cos mainly im too busy and all.

intervensi is tomorrow tomorrow.
and i am not ready.
but it doesnt go in the report card.
its just to test whether we studied for form 1 and form 2 syllabus yet or not.
sheesh.

blackie was feeling very layu today cos it came back from injection.
so i decided to cheer em up.
and i did.
even though sprit felt a little left out.
awww

and my mom cooked beef, chicken, vege, mushroom soup and im sooo full.
oh em gee.

Matsujun is still a hot hot hottie.

joe jonas does NOT look like Matsujun

2009-02-13T07:51:00.000-08:00

Theres a BLOOODY difference right?
So in conclusion.
He does NOT look like Joe Jonas.

stupid damned day.

2009-02-13T06:16:00.000-08:00

tis the time of the year again,
where couples celebrate their love,
where people confess to their crushes,
where they commercialize the day, *as said by rach*
where i am single AGAIN.

and that is partly the reason why I ABSOLUTELY HATE this day.
its tomorrow actually.
and the school is sooo the very smart to host Merentas Desa tomorrow.

today, i think i am being watched because i have been a very bad prefect.
woops.
sorry.

lets see, intervensi is coming up and its uber annoying.
i malas. MALAS want to study.

Rach, you're great one five is coming up.
damn, another year spending it there.
bummer. well hope you have fun.

Za, you biatch, if you don't come tomorrow, i am going to go to your house and hit you myself.

Potential breakup song should be the theme song for Valentine's Day.
:D

I am walking tomorrow. I don't care. Walking is what i am going to do.

Japanese Dramas and Fags

2009-02-11T05:53:00.000-08:00

ok here's my review on both series.

Hana Kimi was my first, numero uno Japanese drama series so I'd say its UBER awesome.

Hana Yori Dango is my second favorite Japanese drama series all time. Even though it was ranked higher than Hana Kimi, Hana Kimi is still my most favorite Japanese drama series all time.

They are both Uber awesome but i think la, Miya would like HYD better. But please dont give up on watching Hana Kimi.
Dr Umeda and the photographer scenes are sooo funny.

My homework is alot. and Za please come to school tomorrow. I wanna see your teeth. :D

OH EM GEEE Matsujun is so hot, i could just drop dead if he were within 3 feet.
*figure of speech not literally*

I have been attempting to listen to all of my nice songs on my Ares playlist, feels so nostalgic.
Paramore - Misery Business is still awesome.

Za, you are being mean by not coming online cos i have A million things to tell you!

oh and btw, to all the people i scold every freaking morning, well i am sorry because mainly, if we don't get you into lines by the time the clock strikes 7.30 am, we get scolding.
every single day.
EVERY SINGLE DAY.
like, Rauf and Sam, if there were some kind of miracle you are reading this, I'm sorry i was so moody that day or everyday as a matter of fact.
I think if they don't change the list, 3 I and 3 J and 3 M are going to hate my guts by the time February ends. 3 classes LAH.
yesterday, i cracked. today, told this guy to stop talking more than 5 times then i lost it and said SHUT UP. and he said fuck off. I DID NOT HAVE A GOOD MORNING.
i almost kicked his balls. better yet, take the flag pole and SULA him. stupid fucker. go fuck himself la if he thinks he's so superior. FUCKED UP DICKHEAD. NO BRAIN WHORE.
i bet his penis is smaller than his brain. STUPID FAG.
the previous year, 3 J is so much better than this year's. Mainly, cos i only had to tell them to stop talking minimal times and also cos they'd AT LEAST make an effort to stop talking whenever i pass by. Sheesh this year, those people in 3J don't even deserve to be in this school. Those rempit people won't give a damn to even try and follow one goddamn rule. I envy VI cos their prefects are sooo good. If only, i have the authority to SLAP THEM. i wonder how those VI prefects do it.

OH GOD.

urgh. sorry this post has a lot of swear words. its just the fact that they wont shut the fuck up is pissing me off. OVER 1 MONTH.

1 FUCKING MONTH

i told them to stop talking. ask nicely, AND STILL WONT LISTEN TO A FUCKING WORD I SAY.

and don't get me started on the girls. nak jeling-jeling?? hah! you ingat ape? you punye bapak punye skolah hah? pompuan sial. tak nak dgr ckp, bela lah, tak yah la nak buat mcn bapak kau punye skolah kan? you want to fucking curse me in chinese. CURSELA. that means , i get the fucking authority to curse your fucking head off too. bitches. won't even listen. ingat rambut you tu cantik sgt ke hah? tolonglah! the hair and school clothes. THINK about how ridiculous you look. i agree with the teacher bout that though.

being a prefect has its ups and downs. but i dont care. im not patient. so im gonna say what i feel about inside. we wear blue shirts. they make it such a big deal if we almost happen to break a rule. OR do something they dont approve of which is something soooooooo small, they make it such a big deal. and they double up on the pressure you get. ok, its enough to get pressure from teachers about the fact that you are in 1st class. but like, we get even MORE scolding if we don't do our jobs perfectly.
i know, from the day that we started wearing blue clothes, we vowed to help the teachers in the school and yada yada yada.